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Today was the most FANTASTIC snow day ever! Beckie slept over last night, we woke up this morning and watched a movie then cleaned the whole downstairs of my house and made some food. When we were done eating we got sucked into watching colorguard. Ed surprised me and showed up at my house! It was a great surprised, especially since it's 5 months today. I must say that I do have the most amazing boyfriend on the face of the earth! Later Hreno, Kristy and Sarah come over and we just sat around watching some guard. We got hungry so we went out to eat, we went to Applebees. Hreno and I finally made plans for prom and such ... it's going to be soo much fun! I'm so excited! Ed and I came back to my house and watched some American Idol and then he had to go. I had such a good day today! I love my friends and my boyfriend!
<3 Trish | | |
| - Oh Sherry
::sigh::
sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do ... and I did it, ended a toxic friendsip. Can't say I'm not hurt but it needed to be done. Things are a lot better off this way. That's all I'm going to say about that.
Wow I haven't written in here in a while.
Beckie is home! She decided to take a semester off of school so she's home. It's great we hang out almost every night. Watch some American Idol with my mommmy. I love having her here!
Guard is good. We have a regional this weekend in NY.
The boyfriend is great, haven't seen him in a week and prolly wont for another 2 but it's alright.
I found my prom dress. I wish I knew how to put pics in this thing cuz I would but I'm dumb and I don't know how. I'm excited for prom. We have the limo plans I'm going with Hreno, Weenie and Rachel Sherman ... now we just need to figure out what we are doing after. I think we're going to NYC which will be cool.
I'm still waiting on some schools. I can't wait to graduate! I'm really excited for this summer also.
Oh by the way JULY 20th = me driving! Woo HOO! I have a car I'm getting my moms and she's going to buy a new one.
Life is pretty good right now. I'm really happy with everything. 1st time in a long time that I'm actually satisfied with everything that's going on in my life.
I love being happy!
<3 Trishy
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| - Hands Down
Seriously I just can't seem to keep this thing updated probably because nothing exciting is really going on in my life. Right now my life consists of trying to get caught up in school, college stuff, and colorguard. Oh so exciting right?
Anywho guard is going okay I suppose. I just don't know the same thing is happening to me that did last year. I like doing guard and everything but I just don't think I'm good and I get so frustrated with myself and scared and tired of all the time it takes up. I bascially don't have a life because of guard. My best friend is not in the activity and I don't even think that she likes it that much so I'm bascially never going to get to hang out with her since she works and I'm getting a job. Having a boyfriend during winter guard scares me to death also. This situation is a little better than last year though. I mean Randy deffinently understood all the time that guard takes up because he went through it for a bit and so did all his siblings, but for some reason he just couldn't deal with it and it completly messed things up. Ed understands also but he dosen't seem to let it bother him that much. Yeah he's upset that we wont be able to spend that much time together but he's dealing with it. I guess as much as I love guard when I'm there I would much rather be with him then working my ass off to not even be able to compare to the talent of the rest of my fellow guardians.
I've been so stressed out about college. I'm so scared that I'm not going to get into West Chester. I really want to go there because of their guard program. On the plus side that's probably where Ed is going so we would be together. We both decided to apply there for the same reason ... the Amazing Marching Band program. A lot of people say that we shouldn't go to the same college but because we are so far apart right now I hate the thought of the distance becoming greater between us. It's not just getting into West Chester that is stressing me out, it's getting into any school that I applied to. I really don't want to be stuck at home going to RVCC. I mean if that was my last possible choice I guess it would be alright but I can't even say that after this year my home will be in Hillsborough. My mom and he boyfriend have been talking about movnig in together and if they do chances are my mom would be moving to Massachusetts. I can't say that I'd be happy about her leaving Hillsborough because everyone that I know is in NJ and chances are I would never see them, but then again I know how happy Scott makes her.
Bascially right now I have no idea what the future holds for me and I'm terrified of that. I'm so eager to get away from here and just start all over again, but I'm also quite scared of making the same mistakes.
I'm growing up and it's pretty scary.
Looking back 4 years ago and seeing where I am today amazes me. I went from this little girl scared to show the world who she really was, to a girl who dosen't give a shit about what the rest of the world thinks about her.
I'm pretty content with my life right now, yes I wish sometimes that things were a little different but those situations are out of my control. I'm happy and thats all that matters!
<3 Trish
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1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
*lost my virginity 
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
*I don't make them
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
*yes, my cousin Katie
4. Did anyone close to you die? no
5. What countries did you visit? US haha
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
*a drivers liscense
7. What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
*April 11th - lost my virginity
April 14th - 18th WGI's
May 7th - Katies Wedding (last time really spent w/ randy as a couple)
June 26th - things happened that shouldn't have
July 3rd - got extreemly drunk and got really f'ed up
July 11th - Donna came home
August 28th - September 2nd - last band camp EVER
September 3rd - 6th - DCA weekend fun times w/ Weenie, my 17th birthday, getting tipsy, meeting the boy of my dreams (Ed)
September 10th - got kissed by Ed
October 10th - Ed asked me out
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
*being told I can drive
9. What was your biggest failure?
*not being good enough
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
*illness, yes
11. What was the best thing you bought?
*i didn't buy much
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
*nobody
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
*Randy
14. Where did most of your money go?
*money what money?
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
*meeting Ed
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
*eh i dun really know
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier
b) thinner or fatter? not sure
c) richer or poorer? poooooer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
*studied
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
*crying
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
*at my uncles w/ a whole bunch of people and my Eddie 
21. Did you fall in love in 2004?
*more than you could ever imagine
22. How many one-night stands?
*none, but one random one night hookup
23. What was your favorite TV program?
*Life as we know it
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
*no, still same people 
25. What was the best book you read?
*nothning sticks out in my mind
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
*Ben Folds Five
27. What did you want and get?
*over Randy
28. What did you want and not get?
* i dun kno
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
*A Cinderella Story
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
*went to DCA prelims, drank a little, and met Ed ... BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
*not getting played for a fool
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
*just straight up comfy
33. What kept you sane? Amanda
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
*Mary-Kate Olsen
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
* fucking BUSH
36. Who did you miss?
* Donna Jean but she's back now!
37. Who was the best new person you met?
*my BABY!
38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: don't take anything for granted?
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I Knew I Loved You
by Savage Garden
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason
Only the sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
As the music played in the background, it seemed as though him and I were the only ones out there on the dance floor. Being held in his arms and swaying to the music, the perfect song and the perfect boy. Just as I thought the moment couldn't be better, he pulled me closer and wispered "I love you", at that very moment my heart skipped a beat. I felt as though I could barely breathe, never in my life have I uttered the words "I love you" like I did to him. The meaning behind my reply was everything, everything I could imagine saying "I love you" for the first time.
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